It’s been three years since my diagnosis. Three years ago, I stood in the hospital car park sobbing into the shoulder of my husband. I knew what the consultant would say but that didn’t make it any easier. I was petrified about what was ahead of me.
A while ago, I wrote a letter to myself and it seems apt to post it today. It’s very relevant and I have read it back many times and will do so in future.
On the 5th of July 2016
Right now, you are standing in the car park after your diagnosis. You have a million questions and you are terrified about how the future looks.
Rest assured, you will get through this.
Your treatment will kick in and life will become manageable again. It won’t be easy but you will be strong. You are amazing and you always find a silver lining. Your life will slowly take more meaning from the ordinary, little things. You will learn to seize the moment. You will learn to love yourself again. And as time goes on, you will inspire others with your strengths.
And even though the future may always remain uncertain, you will learn that each set-back will pass and you will come out stronger.
You will be a beautiful example to your son, not a burden.
Your husband will not run off as fast as he can. It may take him a while but he will fall in love with the new you.
You will be amazing. You will be ok. You have got this.
Kat (Relapse free for 24 months)